Adventures in Indie Authordom,  Be Your Wild Authentic Self

2019: My Year of Stepping into the Arena

“I want to be in the arena. I want to be brave with my life. And when we make the choice to dare greatly, we sign up to get our asses kicked. We can choose courage or we can choose comfort, but we can’t have both. Not at the same time.”—Brené Brown

2018 was, in so many ways, like The Tower from the tarot’s major arcana. The Tower is all about collapse of the old system, of letting go of ways of being and doing that no longer serve us.

The Tower is not a card of peaceful tranquility. When we’re in the throes of transformation, we’re not exactly meditating in a Zen garden. Transformation is hard. It’s scary. It requires a level of self-awareness that can be painful. It requires honesty that can rip us wide open. It exposes our fears, our flaws, our false beliefs.

And after the dust settles, as we stand in the ruins of what we once were, we are left with amazing opportunity. A fresh start. A new beginning. But we begin with a greater awareness than we had before—and that knowledge, painful as it was to acquire, is a gift.

From the outside, nothing much changed in my life in 2018. I enter 2019 living in the same house in the same town. My spiritual belief system is the same. My intended career path is the same. The major relationships in my life are the same. But on the inside, I have changed. I have found the courage to be my authentic, eccentric self, to share my work—my stories—with the world. I have found the courage to forge my own path, and finding that courage was not easy.

As I step into 2019, though, I enter with a clearer vision than I’ve ever had before of the path I want to walk. Armed with reserves of magic, love, and courage, I step onto this indie author path.

Here’s just some of what to expect in 2019:

  • The release of my Tangled Magic series: four fantasy-romance novellas, released between May and the end of 2019.
  • The launch of my Dark Faerie Tales series: This series of short stories promises fairy tales retold with a twist. Expect dark beginnings with brighter endings. First release, WITCHING HOUR, coming in mid-2019.
  • The launch of my YouTube channel: I’m planning guided meditations, poetry, readings from my stories, and more. Launching spring 2019.
  • I’m planning a blog series called Tarot Tuesdays, with the first Tuesday of every month featuring a post dedicated to discovering the life lessons in the tarot.
  • And, of course, the launch of this website, which is very much a work-in-progress.

I may have a few other plans in the works, but I’ll keep those top-super-secret for now.

As we enter 2019, I wish you the brightest blessings. May 2019 bring you health, joy, love, and abundance.


What lessons did you learn in 2018? What hopes do you have for 2019? Have you ever experienced the exhilarating transformation of The Tower?

Blessed Be.

Fantasy & paranormal romance author. Witch. Tarot reader. Possibly a woodland faerie. Witches, magic, & romance await in the pages of my stories.


  • Eden Mabee

    I always thought the Tower was one of the better cards to get. Not that it’s good…. but one could end with the 8 of Cups. :-/

    Seriously though, while change as intense and dramatic as the Tower implies is never easy to bear, there is a joy and a renewing force in the rebuilding and the lessons learned. May you see great things once you’ve ascended your new structure, Denise.

    • denisedyoungbooks

      I agree with your interpretation of The Tower as an overall positive card. There’s this sharp inhale when we first see that collapsing tower, but the image is merely a releasing of the old so that we can create anew.

      Thanks, Eden! I am excited, of course, but a touch nervous, with so many new creative undertakings, and the fear of being seen as our authentic selves is always real. But I believe we must allow the light inside ourselves to shine, so we and others are not lost in the dark, so to speak. And I am inspired by so many people I have met and learned about along the way. Here it goes! 🙂

  • Jennette Marie Powell

    I love this! Glad to see you back in ROW 80. And nice job on the site, too. I am heading for the arena myself this year, trying to ramp up my writing and finally get back into a groove and then some by writing more in a year than I ever have before – with an out-of-state move (my first ever) in the middle of it! I haven’t had a release since 2016, and feel like I’ve accomplished so little since then. That has to change, and the time is now. Best of luck in your new direction, and best wishes for the new year!

    • denisedyoungbooks

      Thanks, Jennette. I know you have a background in web design, so that means a lot. Definitely still working out some problems, but the site is getting there! 🙂

      Out-of-state moves are hard. There are so many moving pieces to try to keep in order. Hubby and I are gearing up for similar changes, so I can relate. Career shifts, minimizing our possessions, simplifying our lives in general, moving to a new location (or no location, perhaps, if we go in the digital nomad direction) moving toward a sense of purpose…it’s exhilarating, but it’s also overwhelming at times! I wish you the best of luck, and look forward to reading your upcoming releases! Here we go!